Life goes on

It's been a long time since I posted on here, a long time since I even came and looked at this blog. I guess I associate our blog with the death of our child. It boggles my mind that it has almost been one year since we had to make that agonizing decision to let her go. Where did the time go? I don't know why I've decided to come back on and write on this, just felt the urge.

There is a saying that I found that I can relate to ~ In 3 words I can sum up everything I learned about life: it goes on ~

I gave birth to Evan Robert on October 1st, 2010 and he brings such happiness to our lives! He in no way replaces Eryn. Our heart still ache for her but we do know that good things can happen after experiencing such a tragedy. I think about Eryn every single day, multiple times a day. I don't think I'll ever get over losing our baby but every day it does get better.

Evan is only 18 days old but I feel like he has been a part of our family forever! He weighed 9lbs, 5ozs when he was born and he weighs 10lbs 3.3ozs at his 2 week check up! He is a chunker! He is a great baby and Lukas adores him! Lukas is such a good brother, just wants to hug and kiss Evan all the time!

I've always hated the saying "Everything happens for a reason." It has always annoyed me when people say that but I think that Eryn had a great purpose in our life and losing her made Sam and I stronger as a couple. Many couples don't survive something like what we went through. I thank Eryn for blessing us with Evan. It's hard to explain but that is how I feel.

Ok, well I know that was a bunch of rambling but I hope to update this regularly about my kids and life in general!