Heaven is receiving an Angel much too soon.

It seems it was about a year ago when we created this blog and now for the first time are using it to share with you what is going on with our life.

I know some of you are wondering what is going on with Sam and I right now. We had proudly announced that we were pregnant with baby #2!

I had my 16 week ultrasound on Monday and we had high hopes to find out the sex of our baby. Instead we found out that our precious baby has a severe form of holoprosencephaly. Our unborn child's brain never formed when I first became pregnant. It never divided as it should have. Our baby is brain dead and has no chance for survival. There is no solid reasoning for this condition. We were advised that he/she would possibly not make it to full term and if the baby did, it would have days if not hours to live. We were advised by a specialist and my OB that our best option is to end my pregnancy.

We did our research and leaned heavily on each other and our immediate family. We came to the decision to end my pregnancy. Mine and Sam's hearts are shattered. We have to say goodbye to our child that we will never hold, never kiss and never see grow up. I know there is a breathing child inside of me but has no quality of life. The baby's brain stem is in tact which makes the baby able to move and wiggle, the heart is beating but the brain is not formed.

I go in tomorrow to end my pregnancy. I can't stop crying, it all seems so surreal. I ask that you pray for us, pray for our families and pray for our angel baby. I know that everything happens for a reason but I am numb and can't understand why this has happened to us.

Please give us time to heal, we thank everyone especially our close friends and family for the unconditional love and support.