I am sitting here with Lukas in our sunroom as he drinks his bottle and for the past 2 days I can't get the thoughts of Eryn out of mind. I just feel devastated. I can't think of a better word. I try to pretend that I am ok but my heart really hurts.

We have started planning Eryn's memorial. I feel like I am stuck in time. I hope that her memorial will give me some sort of closure so I can try to move forward with life. I hope the pain will lessen in time. I hope that people never forget her. Though we never got to see her or hold her my heart still aches the same. I keep looking in the room that we were supposed to be decorating for her and I feel lost.

I wanted to share this quote I found:

The angel, in the book of life, wrote down my baby's birth and whispered as she closed the book 'Too beautiful for Earth."