Today....

Today we are going to get our Christmas cards done. Sam nor I are in the mood to have our pictures taken and smile but I know that if we don't do it I am going to regret it. We all know how much I love pictures. I will give it my best fake smile.

It has been 10 days since my procedure and it doesn't seem to be getting an easier. The pain is still just as intense. Especially before bed, I just lay there and cry. It hits me hardest then for some reason.

We have been busy packing up the house. I've decided that I don't like packing...especially when I don't want to move!

Nothing much else is going on in our world. Still waiting for a call from the funeral home to pick up the baby's ashes.

We have received many cards in the mail from family and friends. They are very much appreciated. I am greatful to have people that care in our lives. I want to share a saying that was on one of the cards. It made me cry but has stuck in my mind and will forever.

Grow, little flower
reach for the light,
your sweet little spirit
forever will bloom.

Glow, little star,
tucked into the heavens,
cradled with care
in the curve of the moon.

Blow, little leaf,
to a beautiful someplace
safe in the sheltering
arms of a breeze-

Know, little one,
that you'll always be with us...
forever held close
in our love's memories.