I had my post-op appointment this morning with my OB. I thank god I have such a great dr. I truly was greatful to have him by my side through all of this.
Anyway, he said physically everything is good with me.
He also had received back the chromosomal testing of the baby's tissue. Sam and I were very surprised because we were told that it would take up to 6 weeks to get the results back. He advised us that the tests came back perfect. There is nothing genetic or chromosomal that caused this to our child. He stated again that this was just a lightning strike situation, he also advised that we had a 1% chance of this happening again.
I then immediately asked him if he knew the sex of our angel baby and he said that he did and asked us if we'd like to know. Of course we said yes to him and were on the edge of our seats.
He advised us that we had a GIRL. My heart shattered all over again. I started to cry. I knew in my heart and soul that we had had a girl. It was heartbreaking to hear but we had a sense of relief and closure (a very small amount) because we now knew that it wasn't our genetics that caused this to happen to our little girl and now we knew we had a daughter.
Now I am going to take this story back to last week. We haven't been sleeping very well for the past 2 weeks and one night around 3am I awoke from a light sleep and asked Sam if he was awake. He said yes. I then informed him that I knew the baby's name if it was a girl. It just came to me while I slept. Maybe from a dream, I don't really know.
We have to decided to name her Eryn Lorraine Levin. Her middle name is after my mother and Sam's mother. They have helped us much through this tragedy.
Eryn will always be on my mind, I love her so much even though I never got to hold her or even see her. Her time was too short but I pray hard that there is a heaven and that that is where she is and that she is happy.
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